I was dining at my ‘Mess’ (a place in hostel where we eat) one of the female server came next to me. I address her as ‘Maushi’.
She said “Divesh bahiya, maza manatli ichha purna hoyil na?” (Brother Divesh, my wish will be fulfilled or not?);
I asked “What wish?”
“Te nahi sangaaar, pan sanga maza manatla hotil na?” (I won’t reveal that; answer me, will it be fulfilled or not?)
“Yes, Yes” I hurriedly answered as I was pissed off at food and secondly had no interest playing hide and seek.
She left, but I did ask her again before leaving, what wish? (I am as curious as a cat can be), she didn’t spill any bean.
This thought didn’t last more than an hour or so. I was back in my room and started ‘Facebooking’ and ‘Chatting’.
Two days later, while she was serving me, she said “Maza saathi prathana keli ka?” (Did you pray for me?).
My faithful memory helped me to recall. I was happy as my day at work had gone well. I don’t know why but my brain has made connection between happiness and spirituality and hence I replied in the same manner.
“Mausi, tyachi marzi asnaar tevahach honaar” (It will happen when he wishes) I said pointing towards the rooftop.
“Vay gelya nantar kay upyog?” (What is the use after I get old?) She said and bingo! I knew what she is asking from god, she wants to get married! But just a second, she is married? In India it is not difficult to differentiate married women from unmarried ones. She was wearing a ‘Managalsutra’ – symbol of her ‘Successful’ marriage.
She started narrating her story; she left her husband because he used to beat, deceive, and to add to her misery, he was also a drunkard and didn’t care an iota about her.
Though I left the place saying god will help you and wished her best luck; immediately bombing started, these were my thoughts, more potent than any dynamite.
I know few men and women who have gone through unsuccessful relationship. Some divorces, some broken shattered hearts and some stupid one sided relationships, all of them.
My experience limits me and hence I cannot comment much on this topic, but what I have learnt from other’s experiences is much more than I could ever go through in this life span.
While listening to some stories (real life) I smile, sometimes I hide laughter (you can’t laugh when someone is crying even though if it is stupid), sometimes heart gets heavy and during few instances I felt tears touching my eyelids.
I don’t get much out of it as I am young and juvenile and unable to digest this; so I have the found a perfect name for it - Life.
This is not just about love between ‘couples’; it is also about family relationship. We have failed ourselves everywhere and the reason is we, ourselves. We always crave for more; never does content resides’ in us. We enjoy happiness for few moments and from the very next moment we want something more than what we have acquired. If by any chance we get lesser than what we had prior than we feel sad about it. More is relative; there are no boundaries or limits drawn for it.
Slowly these feelings will creep in and we will leave all our emotions behind. Few years down the line we will live a life which will be not much different than my pen name!
-inanimate
PS: - We must award American directors with a trophy stating - Visionary of the Millennium. They predicted that world will be ruled by robots by 2025, and I am sure about it. With no emotions, each human is a robot and very few will be left to be called as human by 2025. :)
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